Another Crazy Day

All I can say is OH MY GOD!!!! Right now it is 9:56 PM and everyone except Alex is still up. I feel like my skin is slowly slipping away from my bones...and I can not fully take a deep breath. As I write my 10 year old Richie is jumping on the couch right next to me in our living room and WILL NOT just lay down and go to sleep. I am used to this, for it has been his routine since birth. He sleeps from 11:30 PM till 7:30 AM. Just today has been a particularly more stressful than usual. I'm not quite sure why though, but I just feel very angry. Studying for Richie's spelling test with him doesn't really help either though. It is madding how one minute he knows the word the next it's gone. By evening all of his medicine for ADHD has worn off and he has a hard time sitting at the table let alone trying to spell words.
Another incident that occurred today was that Richie discovered Porn on the computer. Yes, I said PORN!!! He actually typed it into the search bar on Yahoo and up came all of the naked girls you could ever google! I was shocked! Never did I think I had to worry about this kind of thing with a ten year old. Why is this allowed? Why are these sites so easily accessed? Why are they free to anyone? In this world where nothing is EVER FREE you can just type in ass (which is a donkey in the Bible) and see all the actual ASS you want!  Maybe if they asked you for your date of birth that would throw some of the younger kids for a loop and at least deter some of them! I don't know, but something has to be done to protect our young children! SO when I set the parental controls on my computer he had a full fledged melt down...even kicked another hole in the wall in our hallway. And to tell you the truth the Block is a real pain in the ass for me as well. Maybe I don't know how to use it correctly or something, but they should make these things with parents in mind, that's for dam sure! So now everytime I wnt to change a page I have to put in a darn pass word. This just can't be right. I just want to make it so no nudity or sex can come up on the screen...is that soooo hard? Anyway I guess nothing in life can just be easy!
It's now 10:45 PM. Jacob is lying in my bed watching a Batman cartoon, Richie is on the couch watching Battle Las Angeles and Lilly is in her bed moaning about how she can't sleep. I have one more load of laundry to dry and fold and I am ready to pass out. This has been my life for more time than I'd like to remember now. Morning..showers, dressing, breakfast and school. Mom..Home..dishes, cleaning, laundry, laundry and more laundry. Afternoon..HOMEWORK, snack, football, cheer, and or basketball. Night..dinner, studing and a whole lot of yelling..GO TO BED! More laundry and more dishes..fall into bed between 12 and 1 AM,  just to do the whole thing over again the next day.  On top of it all during the day while the kids are at school my husband Rich calls me about 17 times to make sure I am doing something productive with everyminute of my free time. Why is it called free time anyway there is nothing free about it.
Well the old folks keep telling me I'm goig to miss all this one day...the sad part is I think they are right! We as a species never are happy with what we have..it's what keeps WANT alive!